The Missing Link

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Facing the Giant

It is hard to understand why I have been grieving for 10 years, unless you are walking in my shoes.
Some people do not understand the pain/grief of having a cesarean section, and think I’m making this all up in my head. I get that.
However, it’s not merely that I’ve been grieving for 10 years. Think of is as periods of grief. 10 years ago. 8 years ago. 6 years ago. 4 years ago. 1 year ago.

When you suffer loss, the same loss, five times in a decade, it hits hard.

I didn’t realize until last night on the way to church that I was in grief. I just thought it was the PCOS. Perhaps it’s the grief that started the cycle of PCOS. Who knows.

All I know now is, it’s time to work through the grief constructively and move on.
that means taking each loss, all five of them, reliving them with Christ, allowing him to help me overcome disappointment, and accepting his beauty for my ashes. His strength for my fear. His gladness for my mourning. His peace for my despair.

Putting the Pieces back Together

For ten years
I have been angry. Furious.
I have been sad. Depressed.
I have been lonely.
I have been withdrawn.
I have been agonizing.
I have been weepy.
I have been irritable.
I have been exhausted.

I have been grieving.

Disturbing

When a boy has 80% chance of survival rate IF he undergoes chemotherapy, people gasp that he has ran away. He has a 20% chance of death.

When a woman has 95% chance of survival IF she chooses to have a vaginal birth after multiple cesareans, people think she’s going to die. She has a 5% chance of death.

See anything wrong with this logic?

Update: I intentionally misprinted the %ages to see what people would say.
Actually, the percentage of uterine rupture in any birth is less than 1 percent. Uterine rupture is the main concern for vbac patients.
The percentage of death from uterine rupture is about 1/100th of a percent of that 1 percent.
So, the risk of death is miniscule, but that doesn’t stop medical providers from forcing women into repeat cesareans, does it.
http://www.vbac.com/uterine.html

Kind Words

“Isn’t she cute?”

“Just like you.”

Thanks, Dad.

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Bible QOTD

“[Divisions in the Church] I appeal to you, brothers, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that all of you agree with one another so that there may be no divisions among you and that you may be perfectly united in mind and thought.”- 1 Corinthians 1:10

We’re a long way from that!

66 Year Old First Time Mom

This is ridiculous!
Not that a woman has CHOSEN to have her first child at the age of 66. Nope. That doesn’t bother me a bit.
So, what is ridiculous?
The notion that a woman is too old to be a first time mom.
Please.
The liberal media is having a field day with this one. “Should there be limits on the age a woman can be to have a baby.”
The 66 year old woman states she is in good health and completely capable of caring for a child.
We fail to realize that even 22 year old, first time moms, can be in poor health, or die and leave behind their children. Why do we judge someone because of her age?

Now, her unmarried status is another issue, but we don’t condemn 25 year old women who choose to have a baby without a husband.

No. We only judge EXTREME cases. I wonder what Sarah and Abraham would have to say about this?

QOTD

You can end your battle quickly if you choose – simply by quitting and giving in to your fears and doubts.  Satan will not bother those who give up their confidence in the Lord.

David Wilkerson

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